Deep Thoughts...

Sometimes, I wonder if there are naked pictures of me floating around on the internet.

There's pretty much no way there could be, be still, I wonder about it just the same.

That's how I roll!

While I like the sleek look of this blog layout, the all black motif is depressing me a little bit. It seems a little gloom and doom, no?

I've spent a lot of time today thinking about what I want to do with my life. In a perfect world, I know exactly what I'd do but there is one little question that keeps popping into my head: How big is too big? This dream, this hope I have for the future is something that I've wanted for a very long time but is it even within the realm of possibility? Is there any way that I could actually make this a reality? A way of life? Something that could support myself and other people? I'm not even sure how to go about thinking about getting started! See, the main problem is that at times it seems like this dream of mmine is too big. I don't know if I can handle it all by myself. But, like everything else, I guess I won't really know until I try, right?

This week I propose that you feel gratitude for every person who has ever told you that you were inadequate, that there was something wrong with you, that you would never amount to anything. You might even carry out a little ceremony in which you bow down to an altar containing their photos or slips of paper on which their names are written. And why am I suggesting this? Because those jerks helped motivate you to become as cool as you are. And if I'm reading the omens correctly, it's time to summon a huge new burst of creative energy as you disprove their misbegotten ideas about you even more completely.


I apologize for the lack of updating and for the fact the this now makes two entries based on my horoscope, but honestly? This is one of the best ones ever. So in order to keep the karmic ball moving, I'm going to shout out a mass "Thanks!" to everyone who tried so hard to keep me down. To all of the folks who said "You can't do that" or "Prove me wrong" or "You don't have what it takes" I thank you.

But you can still kiss my grits.

Aquarius

"Goose bumps and burning sensations coursed through me as I meditated on your upcoming adventures. From what I can tell, your rambles will be both spooky and fulfilling. They'll knock you on your ass and lift your spirits, sometimes at the same time. They'll give you almost more blessings than you can handle, even as they invite you to take on responsibilities that will give you the chance to be a hero. Are you ready to have your certainties challenged in the most useful ways possible? "

Say what you will about the art of astrology. However, this guy always has the most encouraging things to say to me when I'm coming up on a huge life change.

It's nice to know that the PTB's are on my side...

The bend in the road...

This year is winding to a close. I wanted a lot of things for this year and many of those things came to fruition and some did not. That's ok.

It's weird how things are changing. I think back to the me of 4 years ago or one year ago or, hell, even earlier this year and I seem so different. A little bit wiser, a little less scared, a little more adventurous. A very long time ago my dad told me that the Chinese have two definitions for the word "Change". One is fear and the other is opportunity. I've tried to look at every change in my life as an opportunity since then and it's served me pretty well. I may be leaving this place that I love but I'm determined to go out in a blaze, not to prove anything to anyone but just because that's what this job and this place deserve: my very best. I have my whole life and career in front of me, the possibilities are endless.

"I don't know what lies beyond the bend in the road, but I'm going to believe that the best does."

Because I know you all want it...

It was discovered last night that fascinating things happen when you shake your head up and down as opposed to the original side to side...


Rick really came up with some of the best pictures ever. This one in particular has inspired me to follow my brother's advice and transfer them to B&W. I'm going to blow them up and sell them for the Christmas auction we have here.




Doing things the old fashoined way...

I felt that my blog needed some color. All of the black was beginning to depress me.

I feel a little bit like this frog right now.

Hmmm.